8-17-10

Today has been amazing. I spent quite a time w/my Savior this morn.
I also read in 2 cor.
Paul is amazing to me. I love, love reading about his life and times.

So yesterday hubby and I had a long conversation coming home from the hospital pre-paying for his surgery on friday. The trip lasted about 1 hr. so we definitely talked.
We just shared our hearts about the journey we are on and how much we are little sick inside that not much has happened and we are NOT where we thought we would be by now.
We are really hoping the we are not in the same place next year at this time cause its pretty depressing.
We also shared our hearts about how much we seem to have so much suffering with this journey.
Our journey to adopt has been one rough ride.
It appears that when others do it- it just works out for them and when we step out every time we get hung up and put out to dry and are left without.
It has been really hard to take, and really hard to keep the faith.
We would quit but where would we go???
Peter asked Jesus the same thing- Where Lord should I go?
As for me and my house we will serve the Lord..... enough said

So today reading in 2 Cor. I find Paul saying this- If I must boast, I would rather boast about the things that show how weak I am.

That is powerful to me... Yes that is it! All this suffering really makes us feel weak. Why? Well I won't pretend to have all the answers. Maybe b/c we are not in control?? I think for me that is where it is. Control.

Oh Father forgive me...

Paul also says- We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken, We are perplexed, but we don't give up and quit.
We are hunted down, but God never abandons us.
We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going.

Through suffering, these bodies of ours constantly share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.
WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!
Enough said- we are NOT QUITTING!

He also writes- That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed everyday. Yep!!

So today we are renewed! Hallelujah Jesus it's all for YOU anyway.
I leave w/ one thought-

At the end of the day- I want to know that I still have a place at the feet of Jesus, praising and worshipin my faithful Savior King cause HE IS WORTHY!

Grace, Grace